I need you to be there for me, when I'm nasty and
unpleasant in my ways and mood. Don't preach and don't try to educate me, this
is when I need you the most – when I'm not "fit" to be loved.
Yes, I know I'm a fool and I better straighten up my
act or else… Yes, I know I've been pretty much inviting the universe to slap me
in the face… but now that it's happened, can I please snuggle into your
embracing arms and drown my tears in your silent attention?
Just listen to my voice droning on, nod and listen to
my eyes, my heart. Sit nearby, don't shy away, your embarrassment embarrasses
me. Let me open my heart, it's been slammed shut for too long, dying.
There is no need to be nervous, I'm not waiting for you
to bring the perfect solution, just to listen. Be my wailing wall, a wall that
never falls or fails, and nothing more. There is nothing more I would like in
this world right now.
Please don't roll your eyes, I'm trying to watch them,
scrying for my real self that I lost so long ago. Be still, and I know I will be
found, I know I have a sturdy foundation to come back to – following the bread
crumb trail I left crisscrossing our relationship. Be still and hold me tight,
there is no need to nudge me home, in times as these I draw my strength from
you.
Believe in me, so I can believe in myself.
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